Amazing Lace?

After a crazy week, I drifted over to the main site for the KAL. Don't know why but don't seem to be able to post. So technically I have I missed Challenge #2 as I have no pictures of me doing anything extreme with my many projects all of which are lace.

I've also been reorganizing my stash. LOL! Now that is worthy of a picture. it is extreme! and scary. Here is a mental image for all of you......

I have ADhD, the way it shows up in my personal life when it comes to organization is stacks/piles. I have to have a home/place for everything or else it goes in a pile. Anyone who is reading this and has ADD or ADhD, or is the parent of someone with it knows what this can look like.
When I was little and in grade school all my papers were always all crinkled, my bookbag felt bottomless cause there always seemed to be yet another object loose down there. In second grade I was given a hole puncher that I believe we still have hanging around, the rule was that if I was given a handout of any kind it was to immediately be put in a binder. You should see how many binder I have around this place for my knitting patterns. lol.
What does this have to do with reorganizing? This is only my second semester back at school. When under stress, my normally invisible symptoms come out full rage! I think my personal space (bedroom, all purpose room as I am living in one room) is unforunately an outward expression of my internal feelings.
I have many interests: Knitting, embroidery of many kinds, weaving, spinning, yoga, vedic lit., Reiki (I might have almost every book published on the topic), Self-help (I tend to use workbooks for congnitive therapy, I have been able to make great progress with a book called Mind over Mood <<<
Whatever! It's a complete disaster in this room. Because my brain just doesn't look at things the same way as other people and sometimes lacks the safety net of breaking down a project into sections that are workable. I can break down a project into all it's steps, but it's all or nothing with me. So my stash all got brought out at once! All of it. I decided that the rubbermaid containers were drying out my 100% wool, and that I needed to store them differently. Enter left: mesh zipper bags for delicates. I have been transferring the wool to the mesh baggies and stacking them in a bureau cabinet not being used properly. Ran out of baggies. Yarn all over the place. Then had no immediate cash to run to the store to get more. yarn still all over the place. I've been sharing half my queen size bed with the pile of yarn!

I am so happy not to have a digital camera. To take a picture of this mess and post it on here would be the equivelent of showing you all my dirty underwear with the holes in it. I was making progress on it, but could only work on it in between trying to do work for 14 credits of college work. Than my step-father had his freaky dangerous bi-polar moment with me last week. Talk about throwing someone off thier stride!

Friday, I was afraid to enter the home alone. Mom and me had stayed at a hotel since Tuesday. So after checking us out of the hotel, I hung out at a yarn shop. No one knows yet, but I spent $120 on new stash. Call it anxiety shopping. I deserve it! Then i went and had a full-body Reiki treatment cause energy wise I knew I was completely out of wack. Doing self-treatments was not working. So that was another $6o i spent. The wonderful Reiki Master who I had contacted saying it was an emergency, she sat me down afterwards. She is very worried about me. She happens to be connected to higher realms (spiritual guidance). She's hosted spiritual development groups, (hhmmm how to explain this without sounding like a freak or upsetting any readers) in these groups 5 of us sat there with her. She allows herself to be used by higher beings, kinda like angels who are trying to aid us in this time of turmoil to grow spiritually and be of assistance to humankind's greater good. Over the couse of 5 weekly meetings we each received messages of guidance, hints as to what work we needed to do to be prepared for what is ahead. i like to think of us as all being of energy, and energy has it's various vibrational patterns. What you would like to do is work on increasing the level you are viberating at, as the higher the level there is less of the base strife we witness around us everyday. Not everyone, but a very large portian of the population is stuck in a kind of rut and is vibrating very low (think of a tuning fork and the keys they can produce) Because they comprise more than half at this time, they are influencing all energy on the planet. slightly. kinda like a hook to keep you down or a weight. one by one each needs to work towards changing the frequency just a little so that as a whole all will be affected. enough on that. cause. I know not everyone believes that the planet is a living being and vibrates (think of quartz crystals that make up portians of the planet, and how we use them in TV's and radios etc.) I'm a little of this and a little of that in my belief systems so you'll notice I'm very opened minded.

Well, my friend had trouble doing the Reiki on me, besides an area of blockage as I suspected, she told me the energy around me was all over the place and pulsing outward. I think my body was trying to deal with trauma. She told me to call her no matter the time and I could stay with her, as she is very worried....scared actually for my safety. She picked up something about me being in danger, and felt my step-dad is a very real danger/threat to my safety.

What am I to do? I have been in my bedroom since Friday night. Been trying to get me head into school again. really got messed up emotionally I think. Couldn't meet deadlines, not being productive in my schoolwork. I have till July 1 to drop a class without a penalty to my GPA. Have to do some serious thinking on this, as I will owe money if I drop any classes at this time. Do I take the chance of gambling with my GPA? Or do I go into debt? What is more important? there is also personal health to think about, as emotional health/hygiene is very important too.