Sometimes you just need to vent! or is this rage?

I usually try not to air laundry on the web. But at this moment I've had it, I'm fed up.

Does anyone have someone within thier family, that if they weren't family you would choose not to have anything to do with them? That in fact you normally choose to keep your life clear of toxic people, but have no choose but to interact and even look the other way when they behave baddly?

Well, Aren't I damn lucky! It's like I got the boobie prize on a game show of life. Without naming the person, cause that would be completely tasteless. **rolls eyes** This indiviual does suffer from a few documented mental ails. But in the decade of pop a pill and make it all right, can't we all get documentation for something and walk out with a perscription for some pills?

I know I can. Tell a doctor you can't sleep, say your depressed, say you can't get it up. Tell the doctor you either lack an appetite or can't stop eating. Don't worry! he's got a magic pill in his bag. The pills will help but you still need to make the effort of the other 80% to get to where you need to be.

But in the end we are all responsible for our actions, be they bad behavior or good will towards others. it's up to us to decide if we want to be healthy, and If we want to help ourselves. I do not hide my ails, nor my shortcomings. i am my own worst critic. There is nothing anyone can say to me, that can measure up to what my self-talk is. That is my flaw. I've been through a lot in my 34 years on this planet, but i do not look back at the events and go "oh why". I am strong. I am stronger than I give myself credit for, Have been told that at times when i have felt hopeless. My personal view on past events is that all of it has helped create the warm, caring, big-hearted person i am today. when the time comes to be at bat, I am there. i roll up my sleeves and do it. no pity party.

You are in control of what you do today! what you say and how you say it! We all have days where maybe we should have stayed to ourselves and locked oursleves up cause we were not in a mood fit to be around others. But when you do that, you know you will have to make amends later. Or is that called paying the piper? it's part of living in society, and within a community of life. you step on toes, you say excuse me, sorry.

None of us are due anything solely cause we exist. Big deal you breath, you want respect? Behave and carry yourself as one who requires respect. what you say and how you say it are what counts in this world. That is how you get treated the way by others. If you act like a spoiled child, making demands solely cause you think you can.........you will not always get your way. If you think whining will work faster, remember that this is a ploy used ineffectively by 5 year olds. How often does it work for cute as buttons little ones? Not much does it? So why would it work for a man in his late 50's? DUH! scusey my frenchie.....DUMB_Ass!

This is the biggest shocker for me as i was raised to be respectful to all, no matter who or what. If it's living on this planet you behave a certain way. I was taught curtesy, you know the words.....please, thank you, your welcome, hold a door for a elderly person or a person with a baby carriage. Just the tiny small things in daily life that make this world just that tiny bit more liveable.

Well, when it comes to he who is irking me. Everyone goes out of thier way to walk on eggshells around him. They don't want to set him off, especially since he has a hair-trigger, and no one knows at each particular second just what the trigger is! Jesus Marty and Joseph! swear it's jeckyl and hyde waiting to hear just what frigging voice is gonna come outta that mouth. and a foul mouth it is, and bitter. Like I stated earlier, he feels he is due everything just cause.

I may be very busy, and be asked to go stop what I am doing to do a task for him that happens to just not be as simple as he thinks.......and no courtesy what so ever. In fact he reacted and stated i had made him wait 3 days! lol. ahhhh.less that 12 hours on our plane of existance. So I said, your Welcome.

Oh Holy moly! he went off. cursing and screaming. about how I'll see the payback next time i need a favor from him (never mind he is the last person on earth i would go to for anything, I'd rather not eat for a day than ask for $1 from him) and he started yelling all kinds of bull at someone else that just gives and gives to him. My heart bleeds for them, cause i feel they deserve more. i bite my tongue and hold my words cause I don't want to cause trouble. But they do deserve far better than this. It breaks my heart. If only I knew of someone who could verbally be a match for a lunatic and win. His demands are constant, his behavior childish.......what can you do when they are nuts enough to think that it's all normal and we are the ones in the wrong? That our time, resources of energy....be they physical or emotional tolls on energy. Why are others not as important?

And why the hell am I getting blamed for some major offense of saying 2 words? Your Welcome.
Swear you'd think by now there would be a more effective way of medical science dealing with with like this besides a frontal lobotomy.

enough with my rant. I apoligize for having using up bandwidth with this nonsense!